Sonnet

I hate you.

I hate you for breaking down that
Dam that I had carefully built to
Hold back all those emotions that
Were – are – not needed.

I hate you for making me promise to
Love you always, if God so ordains
To hold me – who has difficulty
Keeping even promises to myself –
To that promise I made for the
Love I have for you, no less.

I hate you for realising the
Impossibility of us finally, then
Leave me in the lurch of our devices
Drowning in all this love gushing
Blood-red, out of my veins.

I hate you for saying I shouldn’t
Be feeling this way, that I should have
A hold over this cuz you told me so
Because one cannot love to order.

I hate you for falling for another
Because you cannot fall for me
Because it hurts so much when
I am loving you still with a
Selfish, possessive love, for I am
Only human and incapable yet of
Unconditionally loving.

I hate you for this situation we are in
This “I don’t know what you are
To me” mode where I am living in
Limbo between feeling and unfeeling
Hold back and show, life and death.

I hate you for still having a hold
Over me, that despite everything
I can no longer leave you, God knows
How hard I tried and I hate myself
For feeling that way because hey,
I want to love you always right?

I hate you.

Writing

Sort of.😆

Writing is like jizzing;
When it comes it
Explodes uncontrollably
Torrential gushes of glory
Till orgasmic waves subside
With the last drop of poetry.

Daily Prompt: Partner

A partner, like the word suggests
Should be someone on our side
Through our worst and our best;
In the former, stay them by our side
In the latter, with us celebrate delight
I may not make a cut above the rest
But I promise that I would do my best.